So I see that Lady Gaga is taking the world by storm again. Methinks she is really good, so no complains =)

This is my first post going public in a very long while. Perhaps because I've been talking about what I do at work, so I kept the previous mostly private. And also because I haven't actually made the effort to post something.

Realised it's not very good, because by putting my thoughts all down here, I am organizing them in the process and it helps me think better.

Random thoughts I have, all swirling in my head, but the reason I'm posting something is because I just feel a peace, a glimmer of hope, an optimism, an ambitious being within me, and I must say I am surprised. Taken by surprise, because I haven't felt this sense of optimism, of wanting to take on the world, of wanting to fulfill my dreams and what I set out to achieve, of feeling I am special and able to do God's work...

I feel like I've finally gained my identity back, found the person I was back in school, now at work.

You know, work changes you. It's another thing in life to experience, but unlike sports/school, it changed me in a way I didn't like. I'm glad, with the support of many, MANY and with faith, I'm so happy I am back.

I like being myself again, to know that even at work, I can control my life and destiny, I can achieve, I can be myself.

No one can ever fathom what I was put through, but God did arrange it this way, and He taught me hard. Lectured actually.

So anyway, it's going to be a very interesting way to end my year, and this year is so different. I guess 2009 is going to be remembered very well.

Right now, I can't wait for my new babies to arrive. Pearl Izumi gems. And, I seriously need to clock some miles. I conveniently lost track of time, and whadya know? 3 weeks to Stand Chart. And I've not clocked any milage. I've only ever been for Fo's class.

Ooh, and yea, I got those babies as well! Boxing Gloves.

Ah, I miss training with the bi-team. Terribly miss swim sesh, run sesh, team gatherings...I can only cherish.

Now, back to work!

Back to cooking meals together which is great. I think I have been too consumed in my own whirlwind, but with Em., hmmm :] Also, total lust for Topshops bracelets. Been so long since I've gotten an accessory but but but... And RMK, Clarins, Lancome and Tang's dresses... but but but...

I have so many things I wanna share but somehow work just keeps coming, and it's not even alot and I'm all over the place!!!

There, I had to add the exclamation marks because that's how I feel!

Not that it's a bad thing! But it's good and bad together!

And I've got both my poor feet twisted and sore, yet I still wanna put on my heels!

Haha, ok, back to working :):)

She is fanfuckingtastic.

The work compartment is increasing in size, maybe because I try to do everything, and want to do everything fast. I want to be a superwoman and help my poor boss. There suddenly seems to be alot, and I don't know which to start on. I don't quite know just how I can be good.

Many things suddenly spring up, and many things suddenly to plan for. It feels like "go here, go here, go there, go there" without even knowing who's steering.

Oh, after 3 years, it's really time to move on to the next level, and take on a whole new level of challenge. YOWZA =)

I'm getting me boxing gloves.

of Vogue Paris August 2009, courtesy of fakingfashion =)

64 total looks. ENJOY!


and this, being my absolute favorite. Saw it and immediately lurvvvved it.
And no surprise with the tagline.

Have always liked their edgy attitude and classic looks, with a nice dab of masculinity! Got my very first scent from Hugo Boss, and it's still my no. 1 favorite :):)


I like the cut of Nina Ricci's dress but thought the shoe was too weird for me.
Ah well, what do I know right?

I currently only know I can't deliver what my boss wants! Either he's not specific and allowing me free rein, or he wants me to really get an answer, and well, in the process win a nobel prize! :(:(

Coming out with a statistical model? and I suck at stats. Oh well, got the answer to another part just before leaving work for boxing, which totally whooped my sorry fat ass! =)

Fo is da BEST. Retreat in novemberrrr. HAVE TO, WANT TO, go for this one.

Am happy, being happy.

I finally sat down at lunch with my mum, sis and bro after bouncing off to neverland for a rather long period. I guess it was refreshing to hear their takes on the decisions I've made and how I realised that I am so used to being disjointed from my family, making decisions so independently that I forget I belong to a social unit. Takes some getting used to I suppose, because knowing stubborn self, when I set my eyes on something, when I decide on something, I do it and adopt a devil may care attitude. Good, when I know it best to be in my best interest, and bad especially when I rely on my raw experience to make a decision.

Sure, we all like to think we're grown up and able to think for ourselves. Personally, I think it is more than that. It isn't so much a pride thing as it is to do things the hard way and learning alot more, being responsible for the decisions you make. And sometimes, I know if the advice is worth taking, worth listening.

Anyway, church was good today too. It is always good. But I know I've strayed and going back to God has kept me grounded, and given me peace that comes with every relevation, every knowledge, every incident that God plants in my life.

I can say that now, I am in a good place. I know I'm young and hence bold and even naive to proclaim it. But I know I'm in a good place because I am never more clear of how God is wonderful, is loving, is forgiving and giving. Given my waywardness, I've had a good life. Not always cushy, but very blessed.

I've been, can I say, spoilt. Because all my needs are taken care of, except I am greedy. Then when I wasn't greedy, and in real need, He gave more. Whenever I asked of something, He gave. When I didn't, He still gave.

He made everything perfect. All my life, things pan out so nicely, perfectly, in good timing, so I say I'm in a good place because I've seen for myself how I need not worry anymore. Even if things don't go well, I worry not, because God is there in the future already, He is above all, and I know I'm always in His heart.

I gave nothing much in return to God's bin, but His shovel is always bigger, and when I stopped shoving, He continued and I have abundant.

I guess I'm not boasting, neither am I trying to sell the word of God. I just want to keep this in memory.

I always tell of my love for friends, em or family, but somehow never to God. I am thankful. Very thankful.

Thankful that He gives me emery.
He presented opportunities to soar in life, in school.
He favors me and indulges me.
He gave me a wonderful job.
The basis of all things, He gives me optimism and happiness.

So my revelation, is that the only thing I can do for God, since He gives me so much and I feel so bad for taking advantage, is spread His love. He loves me so much, only I will know its power. And well, pass on.

So I say, if there's anything that one can do to make God happy, do it because He deserves it. It's the very least =]

We did tough times. We did good times.
We did joy. We did sorrow.
We did love. We did friendship.
We did mistakes. We did success.
All our lives, we did more than just school and books.

And the only way we did all that, is through people like these

Monst. Smelly. Geri. Sis. Mum. Em. Nan.

LJ's pic upload is not very good. So visual aid --> FB!

" At first I didn't want you to come cause I thought I just wanna get it over and done with but when I was seated, I hoped someone was there to see me on stage. And I'm happy you were there to see."

and then I thought,

At first I didn't want to go cause I thought you didn't want anybody to go and would be ok with it, but when I was seated, I wanted nothing more than to be where I was, seated, looking at you go up on stage, and feel so happy and so proud of you, as a graduate, as a kind wonderful person, as a fighter fuelled by fire yet cool as ice, as a loving, supportive and patient boyfriend, as the only one I will ever want to spend the rest of my life with.

Whatever it takes baby, you have me to build your dream 

Fakingfashion: Fendi Fall 2009. The sunnies... OMG. So pretty.




Fakingfashion: Vogue Italia July 2009. Milla Jovovich as usual stunning, and Sasha Pivovaro, love, love her look. My fav above.

China suicide puts spotlight on secretive culture?

Second thought:

Yoga for golfers?